the 411

I am a thinker. I'm a hopeless romantic, a freelance dreamer, and an accomplished mood-swinger. What I'd like to be able to say is that no one tells me what to do. Unfortunately, that isn't true at all. I'm quite the pushover.

I'm nice, pretty and kind, like the princess that curtsies all the royal guests, and is seen but not heard. It's a cute image, but not one you'd love to brag about. My life is quite tragic this way, which makes me a drama princess.

I love expressive photography — especially pictures of couples or pretty girls.

I've got beauty and brains, I understand HTML like I understand makeup. I fall for words very easily, because words speak to me more than people, and I am unreasonably in love with dancing. Therefore, the way to my heart? — words, personality, songs and lyrics, and all the right moves.

My "sense of humour" exists mostly on special occasions, I'd like to believe I don't own that certain power to be humourous. I specialize in deep and serious things.

I'm a Catholic Christian, and though I'm faithful, I won't say I'm solid. Free-thinkers have wandering minds. I love Jesus Christ, and my way of worship will remain between me and Him.

I try to be open-minded in music, though I may lean towards acoustics, techno, and a little bit of that rnb. I dream that someone will someday write a song for me :)

Love and friendship complete me, and I often choose to be blind to the negative. "The truth is, the glass is both half-full and half-empty." Silence is my virtue, Or at least that's what I say when I'm scared to move.

I refuse to be average. I'm discreet but I can also be a tireless talker. I'm a frustrated drummer and a singer wanna-be. I'm a compulsive writer, a professional daydreamer, a part-time failure, and a full-time believer. I believe it's safe to say that no one has come to my life yet that has completely understood me, but I will always love the people who try.

There's a world out there that's made for me, but why risk never finding it when there's one here made by me?

Well, there's more to me than I can say, but really — what does it matter when, tomorrow, I'll be somebody new? :)

Sorry na.

He's tampo.

And it's a beeyootiful day and the suns out!
Anyhowss. Rewind.

Just feel like blabbing about my wonderful boy-friend/bestfriend because it's my blog and I can blab about whatever the hell I want. What could be more perfect than someone who swears at you and you both name-call all day long? Never, have I been on such position and he sure is asking for a verbal war and a kick in the groin, but whatevs. I always let him off the hook I dont know why the hell I dooo. So anyway. We spent almost half the day together yesterday and he's been annoying me non stop about this wish I have and like challenged me to this word game we've been playing. LOL Retard thinks he's better than me haha pfft! He is determined to thrash my score but he will nevuhhhh succeed. Fagget :P BUT, I like that he plays even though he's complaining of a headache *claps*

K gotta go hit the books. I'm procrastinating again.

Oh oh. By the way, before anyone thinks he's an a$$ for the swearing and name-calling, w-ell. We're just friends (?)

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Nostalgia

Seriously why am I blogging like crazy? I don't think I've ever blogged this much in my entire lifetime.
Meh, I should stop complaining, it just sucks.
Perhaps I am just being melodramatic. Or a silly girl. Or stupid or whatever. But this is tearing me apart. Somethings wrong with my BRAIN.. cranium. I do not know the answer. I hate not knowing.

for now,
i'll let myself be a bit irrational.
always take everything with a grain of salt.
be thankful for anything.
sometimes risks are what gets you farther in life.

Haven't done this in awhile. So yeahh why not. k Bye
(ignore the messy do and the plain face)

PS. I'm itching to play the piano =(

New background

Aren't the lights within the city just beautiful? This is why I enjoy the night life. That being said I don't mean getting hammered and going home late during the wee hours.LOL. I like the night life because they're never boring. People you see around are often, happy people. And like me, they're all slightly cracked people.haha
But staying up late also means waking up late. I really should kick this new habit of waking up at 10. I'm a morning person and I feel so much better when I wake up early, but now I'm turning nocturnal. Must stop taking short naps!

LOL. Some antique edited pics I found on my files which I made online. I've always wanted to cut my hair short and like play with it but I'm also too chicken to do it. haha! Currently I have an obsession with pink highlights and some heavy body tatts ;D I'll be sure to write this down on my bucket list slash things-to-do-before-i-die list. LOL



Too cute

sizzle sizzle..

blogspot challenge Day 12

Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Random meanderings.

Upsides of the week: appetite is back, working out now as scheduled (missed a few days because of feeling nauseous all week), mini reunion, coronado beach/ downtown, oishi, callbacks from different companies, no more driving for everyone, shopping!, helluvah riotous moments with mom, learned to play two songs

Downsides: getting sick sick sick, haven't done laundry for a whole week (working on it now lol)

Hmm. Looking at this list with hardly any downsides this week makes me feel happy =) .. I must really be happy.


...When i think of you, my heart sings a little love song.

The Best kind of LOVE

This past weekend was bitter sweet. It was the first time in 15 years that I saw people I know from high school. Time had changed us and we weren't those same kids anymore. We are now responsible, working adults and that realization sucked. But as it went on, I was just happy to see everyone with stories after stories of grade school to high school lunacy. My only regret was that I hoped the bulk of the reunion was "my batchmates" too. LOL.

A pic of our mini reunion back in Twenty-0 something ^-^


.. on a more happier note,

I love my friends. They have hearts of gold=) Oh and Dan, he is just awesome. I am completely blown away by the amount of love pouring out of me, and to be on the receiving end of such love? No words. Truth be told, it may be a rough road but I'm leaning towards the "I'm glad this is happening" side because I know that I'm genuinely happy for the time-being.
Life is too short for stupid drama.

Something you were meant to read

Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, loving someone you're not meant to love, and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life, fall in the category of the most common misapprehensions made by people that fall in love. Sometimes, you think you're already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over him just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. I would personally be too afraid to see the one I love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of absence of love, love is always present, it's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left, maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger.

(No, I did not write this. If you know the source, please comment so I can credit. Thanks)

Where's this form of addiction coming from??
You're hella irresistible.


.. and they should have one of these in hospitals.

blogspot challenge

Since I am homebound today with no car, I shall just make up for the days I missed on the challenge.

Day 09 — A photo you took
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently

Day 09 — A photo you took

My beautiful niece

Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago15 years ago..

2008..


Kat Leigh. She is still one of my best girls. Grade school and high school wouldn't be the same without her crazy ass. We could laugh all day by just looking at each other. LOL
and almost Twenty years of friendship? Whoa.

Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
June 2010 (I don't have my cybershot so I'm sticking to my webcam)

rantrant

So, here I sit infront of my laptop punching keys to tell the world how the forte of my Sundays usually are. It's not very often that I wake up at 530AM on a Sunday so I think I'll just blab about how lazy these days are. God rested on the last day after he had worked hard to create the world in six days, so says the holy scriptures. Surely that’s the way it should be for anybody; relaxation and rejuvenation after six days of work. For me sunday is a family day where we typically spend breakfast, lunch and dinner together. On normal days, we don't spend them dining together because everyone has this retarded schedule. The church, eating out, TV, the computer and rest were always our Sunday’s forte. Its a time we connect with our crazy paraphernalias.LOL I on the other hand, would usually spend it gawking at my piano keys, hours of listening to my favorite music, and in cases like today, reflecting and fantasizing in something. Now that I'm currently not working, I just like to spend Sunday building castles in the air, getting boat rides, sky diving, surfing, and all those magical stuff that you see only in movies.lol When I was a kid, I didn't like being taken to the church so much. As I grew up, I came to like attending masses because my childhood best friend Jane and I would frequently spend it together and I always look forward to our "after-mass" spree: eating, shopping, walking around, getting stalked by weird crazy-ass Arabs(I do not speak in general). THIS seriously happens each time and when I say EACH time, I am not exagerrating.lol And now, I still look forward to Sunday masses because I think this is the time where I am able to reflect and thank the Lord for all His blessings. I am not a religious person but I believe I'm happier when I am able to dedicate an hour of my time thanking Him.

So who knows what course life will take and what the years (howsoever many there may be) will bring. Maybe many Sundays might be spent working (surely! Nurses are out of bounds to almost ANY Holiday! ugh) and God forbid but who knows the future. I’ll probably even get married on a Sunday and surely I’d want a relaxed, cool, non-crazy ceremony for the same. I’ll probably spend some Sundays doing crazy stuff, long rides, playing with my kids or even grand-kids but whatever I do, I’d surely want my Sundays to be fun-days. So enjoy yours and may you have a blessed Sunday!


(Doesn't this picture just capture your heart?)

Singing frenzy #3 - Airplanes

The brah and I would usually have fun recording live on cam but since our cybershot has been acting up lately, I now have to do more amateur solo covers.lol
So this one's my take on AIRPLANES. I don't rap but any kind of music works for me so screw it I had fun making this LOL. Oh and don't mind the mess ups and really bad pacing I had a hard time catching my breath hahaha

Singing frenzy #2

Re-uploaded. And yeah I know its apparent that I only sing like the first 30 seconds of every song. haha. OH WELLS. Didn't do the first part (rap ish) cos I just learned it a few hours ago (I'm a nerd I know, shoulda sang this when it first came out) Oh and I just got my voice back and now I'm only straining it lol

K you know the drill. Pause music vid on the right first ^^ Enjoy mocking me again haha



.. and look what I found. soo adorable!


Visit Cecilia & Michelle Elaine at http://www.fvncy.com/

With love, Jerzie

My abs "look" really toned here, nice lol

the past

Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad

Aww but it's so early in the morning to think of sumn sad? Yowza. K here goes.

Never thought the day would come that I'd look through our old pictures. Heck I'm even unaware I still kept them on one of my image hosting websites. But whatever. The past is gone, no use in dwellin on it. We make mistakes, learn from them and forget them.

"Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough and move on when things are not like before. For sure, there is someone out there made just for you."